This coming Mother’s Day is bittersweet. Last year at this time I sat next to my mom, hand in hand, feeling her butter-soft skin, knowing it was probably the last Mother’s Day we would share on this side of heaven. She took her place in paradise 10 days later. She was 89.
Grief comes in waves like an unexpected tsunami as I strive to be more grateful than sad. I realize I was one of the lucky ones – to have a mother who loved fiercely and lived her life in the way she hoped I would live mine.
Memories of every sort, as clear as the crystal in my china cabinet, make me smile, laugh out loud, and make me want to pick up the phone and call her. I hold such memories tight. Her spirit huddles around me and manifests in a love language that speaks to me. Daily.
When I became a mom, I learned the job is often messy, exhausting, less than glamorous, and underappreciated. I also learned, and still believe, it is the most important and most beautiful vocation there is – second to none.
As Mother’s Day draws near, I want to encourage young moms who take the time to do the little things — keep doing them. All day. Every day. Think of yourself as a superhero without a cape. The world needs you more than ever.
Thanks, Mom, for your lifelong inspiration and love. You never needed a cape to be my superhero.
When You Thought I Wasn’t Looking
Mary Rita Schilke Sill © 1980
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You hung my first painting on the refrigerator
And I wanted to paint another.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You fed a stray cat
And I thought it was good to be kind to animals.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You baked a birthday cake just for me
And I knew that little things were special things.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You said a prayer
And I believed there was a God I could always talk to.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You kissed me good-night
And I felt loved.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
I saw tears come from your eyes
And I learned that sometimes things hurt
But that it’s all right to cry.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You smiled
And it made me want to look that pretty too.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
You cared
And I wanted to be everything I could be.
When you thought I wasn’t looking
I looked
And wanted to say thanks
For all those things you did
When you thought I wasn’t looking.